Saturday, August 3, 2019

Madeline Miller

“In a solitary life, there are rare moments when another soul dips near yours, as stars once a year brush the earth. Such a constellation was he to me.”

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“I felt poised as a hawk on a crag. My talons still held the rock, but my mind was in the air. 
‘I propose a truce,’ I said. ‘A test of sorts.’
‘What sort of test?’  He leaned forward a little. It was a gesture I would come to know. Even he could not hide everything. Any challenge, he would run to meet it. His skin smelled of labor in the sea. He knew ten years of stories. I felt keen and hungry as a bear in the spring. 
‘I have heard,’ I said, ‘that many find their trust in love.’
It surprised him, and oh, I liked the flash of that, before he covered it over. 
‘My lady, only a fool would say no to such an honor. But in truth, I think also only a fool would say yes. I am a mortal. The moment I set down the moly to join you in your bed, you may cast your spell.’ He paused. ‘Unless, of course, you were to swear an oath you will not hurt me, upon the river of the dead.’
An oath by the River Styx would hold even Zeus himself. ‘You are careful,’ I said. 
‘It seems we share that.’
No, I thought. I was not careful. I was reckless, headlong. He was another knife, I could feel it. A different sort, but a knife still. I did not care. I thought: give me the blade. Somethings are worth spilling blood for.”

—

“It was autumn by then, the light thinning, the grass crackling under foot. The month was nearly gone. We were lying in my bed. ‘I think we must leave very soon, or I’ll stay the winter.’
The window was open; the breeze passed over us. It was a trick of his, to set a sentence out like a plate on the table and see what you would put on it.”

—

“I looked into that shining gray gaze, her eyes like two hanging jewels, twisting to catch the light. She was smiling, her hand open towards me, as if ready to receive mine. When she had spoken of children, she had nearly crooned, as if to lull her own babe. But Athena had no babe, and she never would. Her only love was reason. And that has never been the same as wisdom.”


- Excerpts from Circe by Madeline Miller

Friday, August 2, 2019

Lisa Taddeo

“Often, the type of waiting women do is to make sure other women approve, so that they may also approve of themselves.”

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“We pretend to want things we don’t want so nobody can see us not getting what we need.”

—

“Like many girls her age, Maggie is laid out before the world, unafraid, unpopulated. Men come to insert themselves, they turn a girl into a city. When they leave, their residue remains, the discoloration on the wood where the sun came through every day for many days, until one day it didn’t.“

—

“But you can’t say these things. Because Hoy and everybody else lives in denial. They won’t be honest even in their own brains let alone in a courtroom where everything you say can be used against you. There is no humanity in humans. You palm your arm to smooth down the shivering hairs. They are picking up on a breeze of self-hatred.”

- Excerpts from Lisa Taddeo’s Three Women

Sunday, July 14, 2019

Charles Baxter

“As is proper, the children — all grown — have left home. We have three. The oldest, our beautiful daughter Sarah, is, like her mother, a biochemist. She is successful but, so far, unmarried. She would be a handful for any man. I mean this as praise and description. The middle one, Ephraim, is a mathematician and father to three wonderful little ones, our grandchildren. I have pictures here somewhere. Of the youngest, Aaron, who is crazy, I should not speak. And not because he blames me for the mess in his head. No: he deserves to be left alone with his commonplace lunacies — he calls them ideas — and given peace. He lives in Los Angeles.”

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“I have to admit it: the business gave me a boost. I liked having a place to go in the morning. I liked having a purpose. I liked arriving there before the mall had opened. It’s what you might call a dawn feeling. No doubt there is a word for this in German. Every day is a new day when filled with dawn feeling, a virgin day, until it gets fucked up by human activity and becomes history.”

-

“That’s all I am going to say about the subject for now. As Chloe says, some things don’t bear much looking into. If you want something to read, then read the white space on the rest of this page. That’s me, down there in the white.”

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“I thought he was kind of beautiful. I liked thinking about him. My tastes had changed. My concept of male beauty had altered: he was now the definition of it. ... I had shorts on, too. My legs were prettier than they’d been a month or so before. Smoother and nicer-looking. I don’t know why. They just were. Oh, actually I do know why: he loved them.”

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“Neil Diamond’s Song Sung Blue was blaring over these internment-camp speakers, and I was sitting there with my head in my hands wondering what I was doing in Jackson, Michigan. The colors on the water were turning from magenta to a sort of hot pink, and I was having this insight that my parents had let me loose in the world without explaining anything of importance to me.”

- Excerpts from The Feast of Love, by Charles Baxter

Saturday, May 4, 2019

Amy Gentry

”Julie has been in the house for a few weeks, and though I am getting used to it, it still feels like someone has rubbed me all over with a rasp. Every pore seems to be open, every hair a fine filament ready to shoot me full of sensation at the slightest breeze. I have been fighting for so long to stifle sensation. I remember when the grief was so potent I would lie on the sofa with the television on drinking vodka gimlets, one after the other, just waiting to pass out, staying as still as possible, teaching myself the art of numbness. And now it is as if I’ve been dropped into scalding water and the numbness has peeled away and the skin underneath is affronted by air. If there is something missing — if I am afraid to love her quite as much as before – it is only because the potential for love feels so big and so intense that I fear I will disappear in the expression of it, that it will blow my skin away like clouds and I will be nothing.”

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“I keep trying to find the before. But once something like that happens to you, there is no before anymore. It takes the before away. And if there is no before, then there’s no order I can tell it in that makes any sense, and no reason to choose one particular place over any other. I’d start with the shame, but everything gets there eventually. So, no hurry, I guess.”

-

“It was the first time I understood that there was a whole world in there I would never see, a world so distant from me, and so distinct, that to say that Julie was made from me, that she was my daughter and I was her mother, seemed meaningless. I think I loved her more profoundly in that moment than I have ever loved anyone.”

- Excerpts from Good As Gone, by Amy Gentry

Saturday, March 2, 2019

Patrick Rothfuss

“It was night again. The Waystone Inn lay in silence, and it was a silence of three parts.

The most obvious part was a hollow, echoing quiet, made by things that were lacking. If there had been a wind it would have sighed through the trees, set the inn’s sign creaking on its hooks, and brushed the silence down the road like trailing autumn leaves. If there had been a crowd, even a handful of men inside the inn, they would have filled the silence with conversation and laughter, the clatter and clamor one expects from a drinking house during the dark hours of night. If there had been music...but no, of course there was no music. In fact there were none of these things, and so the silence remained.

Inside the Waystone a pair of men huddled at one corner of the bar. They drank with quiet determination, avoiding serious discussions of troubling news. In doing this they added a small, sullen silence to the larger, hollow one. It made an alloy of sorts, a counterpoint.

The third silence was not an easy thing to notice. If you listened for an hour, you might begin to feel it in the wooden floor underfoot and in the rough, splintering barrels behind the bar. It was in the weight of the black stone hearth that held the heat of a long dead fire. It was in the slow back and forth of a white linen cloth rubbing along the grain of the bar. And it was in the hands of the man who stood there, polishing a stretch of mahogany that already gleamed in the lamplight.

The man had true-red hair, red as flame. His eyes were dark and distant, and he moved with the subtle certainty that comes from knowing many things.

The Waystone was his, just as the third silence was his. This was appropriate, as it was the greatest silence of the three, wrapping the others inside itself. It was deep and wide as autumn’s ending. It was heavy as a great river-smooth stone. It was the patient, cut-flower sound of a man who is waiting to die.”


-


“Perhaps the greatest faculty our minds possess is the ability to cope with pain. Classic thinking teaches us of the four doors of the mind, which everyone moves through according to their need.

First is the door of sleep. Sleep offers us a retreat from the world and all its pain. Sleep marks passing time, giving us distance from the things that have hurt us. When a person is wounded they will often fall unconscious. Similarly, someone who hears traumatic news will often swoon or faint. This is the mind's way of protecting itself from pain by stepping through the first door.

Second is the door of forgetting. Some wounds are too deep to heal, or too deep to heal quickly. In addition, many memories are simply painful, and there is no healing to be done. The saying 'time heals all wounds' is false. Time heals most wounds. The rest are hidden behind this door.

Third is the door of madness. There are times when the mind is dealt such a blow it hides itself in insanity. While this may not seem beneficial, it is. There are times when reality is nothing but pain, and to escape that pain the mind must leave reality behind.

Last is the door of death. The final resort. Nothing can hurt us after we are dead, or so we have been told.”

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“In the midst of silence Lyra stood by Lanre’s body and spoke his name. Her voice was a commandment. Her voice was steel and stone. Her voice told him to live again. But Lanre lay motionless and dead.

In the midst of fear Lyra knelt by Lanre’s body and breathed his name. Her voice beckoning.  Her voice was love and longing. Her voice called him to live again. But Lance lay dead and cold.

In the midst of despair Lyra fell across Lanre’s body and wept his name. Her voice was a whisper. Her voice was echo and emptiness. Her voice begged him to live again. But Lanre lay breathless and dead.”

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“‘All stories are true,’ Skarpi said. ‘But this one really happened, if that’s what you mean.’ He took another slow drink, then smiled again, his bright eyes dancing. ‘More or less. You have to be a bit of a liar to tell a story the right way. Too much truth confuses the facts. Too much honesty makes you sound insincere.’

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“‘No matter where she stood, she was in the center of the room.’ Kvothe frowned. ‘Do not misunderstand. She was not loud, or vain. We stare at a fire because it flickers, because it glows. The light is what catches our eyes, but what makes a man lean close to a fire has nothing to do with its bright shape. What draws you to a fire is the warmth that you feel when you come near. The same was true of Denna.’”

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“I stopped walking. ‘Selas flower.’  She stopped and turned to look at me. ‘All this and you pick a flower I don’t know? What is a Selas flower? Why?’ ‘It is a deep red flower that grows on a strong vine. Its leaves are dark and delicate. They grow best in shadowy places, but the flower itself finds stray sunbeams to bloom in.’  I looked at her. ‘That suits you. There is much of you that is both shadow and light. It grows in deep forests, and it is rare because only skilled folk can tend one without harming it. It has a wonderous smell and is much sought and seldom found. . . ‘What flower would you bring me?’ I teased, thinking to catch her off guard. ‘A willow blossom,’ she said without a second’s hesitation. I thought for a long minute. ‘Do willows have blossoms?’  She looked up and to the side, thinking. ‘I don’t think so.’ ‘A rare treat to be given one then.’ I chuckled. ‘Why a willow blossom?’ ‘You remind me of the Willow.’ She said easily. ‘Strong, deep-rooted, and hidden. You move easily when the storm comes, but never farther than you wish.’  I lifted my hands as if fending off a blow. ‘Cease these sweet words!’ I protested. ‘You seek to bend me to your will, but it will not work. Your flattery is naught to me but wind!’  She watched me for a moment, as if to make sure my tirade was complete. ‘Beyond all other trees,’ she said with a curl of a smile on her elegant mouth, ‘the Willow moves to the wind’s desire.’”

-

“Such was our conversation. But not only were we lacking touch to guide us, it was as if we were also strangely deaf. So we danced very carefully, unsure what music the other was listening to, unsure, perhaps, if the other was dancing at all.”

-

“Words are pale shadows of forgotten names. As names have power, words have power. Words can light fires in the minds of men. Words can wring tears from the hardest hearts. There are seven words that will make a person love you. There are ten words that will break a strong man’s will. But a word is nothing but a painting of a fire. A name is the fire itself.”

- Prologue and excerpts of The Name of the Wind, by Patrick Rothfuss

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“I brought the lute out of its shabby case and began to tune it. It was not the finest lute in the Eolian. Not by half. Its neck was slightly bent, but not bowed. One of the pegs was loose and was prone to changing its tune ... I touched the loose peg gently, running my hands over the warm wood of the lute. The varnish was scraped and scuffed in places. It had been treated unkindly in the past, but that didn’t make it less lovely underneath. So yes. It had flaws, but what does that matter when it comes to matters of the heart? We love what we love. Reason does not enter into it. In many ways, unwise love is the truest love. Anyone can love a thing because. That’s as easy as putting a penny in your pocket. But to love something despite. To know the flaws and love them too. That is rare and pure and perfect.”

- Excerpt from Wise Man’s Fear, by Patrick Rothfuss

Saturday, January 19, 2019

Daniel Keyes

“April 3 — Finished Robinson Crusoe. I want to find out more about what happens to him but Miss Kinnian says that’s all there is. WHY.”

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“April 6 — Today, I learned, the comma, this is, a, comma (,) a period, with, a tail, Miss Kinnian, says its, importent, because, it makes writing, better, she said, somebody, could lose, a lot, of money, if a comma, isnt in, the right, place, I got, some money, that I, saved from, my job, and what, the foundation, pays me, but not, much and, I dont, see how, a comma, keeps, you from, losing it, but, she says, everybody, uses commas, so Ill, use them, too,,,,”

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“I don’t know what’s worse: to not know what you are and be happy, or to become what you’ve always wanted to be, and feel alone.”

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“But then it hit me like a fist against the side of my head that I didn’t remember what I had to do. It was as if I had been looking at the whole thing clearly on the blackboard of my mind, but when I turned to read it, part of it had been erased and the rest didn’t make sense.”

- Excerpts from Flowers for Algernon, by Daniel Keyes

Saturday, December 1, 2018

Andrew Hart

"But then that's how you get by sometimes, isn't it? By deploying those little half-truths that keep the world rosy enough to live in."

"Lying is creation ex nihilo. It's parthenogenesis, the goddess Athena is born fully armed from the head -- the mind -- of her father, Zeus. Lying is making things up out of thin air. Except that the air is toxic, corrupting everyone who hears the lie, and the liar most of all."

"Whatever the world is, I still have to live in it. We all do. Maybe that's the truth at the heart of the labyrinth myth -- that we're wandering, lost, always trying to stay one step ahead of our personal monsters, always ready, sword in hand, spooling out Ariadne's thread in the hope that one day we will make it out in one piece."

- Excerpts from Lies That Bind Us, by Andrew Hart