"I really have discovered something at last. Through watching so much at night, when it changes so, I have finally
found out. The front pattern DOES move—and no wonder! The woman behind shakes
it!
Sometimes I think there are a great many women behind, and sometimes only
one, and she crawls around fast, and her crawling shakes it all over. Then in the very bright spots she keeps still, and in the very shady spots
she just takes hold of the bars and shakes them hard. And she is all the time trying to climb through.
But nobody could climb
through that pattern—it strangles so; I think that is why it has so
many heads. They get through, and then the pattern strangles them off and turns them
upside down, and makes their eyes white! If those heads were covered or taken off it would not be half so bad.
I think that woman gets out in the daytime! And I'll tell you why—privately—I've seen her! I can see her out of every one of my windows! It is the same woman, I know, for she is always creeping, and most women
do not creep by daylight.
I see her on that long road under the trees, creeping along, and when a
carriage comes she hides under the blackberry vines. I don't blame her a bit. It must be very humiliating to be caught creeping
by daylight! I always lock the door when I creep by daylight. I can't do it at night,
for I know John would suspect something at once.
And John is so queer now, that I don't want to irritate him. I wish he
would take another room! Besides, I don't want anybody to get that woman
out at night but myself.
I often wonder if I could see her out of all the windows at once. But, turn as fast as I can, I can only see out of one at one time. And though I always see her, she MAY be able to creep faster than I can
turn! I have watched her sometimes away off in the open country, creeping as
fast as a cloud shadow in a high wind.
If only that top pattern could be gotten off from the under one! I mean to
try it, little by little.
I have found out another funny thing, but I shan't tell it this time! It
does not do to trust people too much.
There are only two more days to get this paper off, and I believe John is
beginning to notice. I don't like the look in his eyes."
-Excerpt from "The Yellow Wallpaper," by Charlotte Perkins Gilman
Wednesday, September 30, 2015
Monday, August 10, 2015
Joan Didion
"We look for the sermon in the suicide, for the social or moral lesson
in the murder of five. We interpret what we see, select the most
workable of the multiple choices. We live entirely, especially if we are
writers, by the imposition of a narrative line upon disparate images,
by the 'ideas' with which we have learned to freeze the shifting
phantasmagoria which is our actual experience."
- Excerpt from The White Album, Joan Didion's book of essays published in 1979
- Excerpt from The White Album, Joan Didion's book of essays published in 1979
Monday, June 22, 2015
William Faulkner
"I decline to accept the end of man ... I refuse to accept this. I
believe that man will not merely endure: he will prevail. He is
immortal, not because he alone among the creatures has an inexhaustible
voice, but because he has a soul, a spirit capable of compassion and
sacrifice and endurance. The poet's, the writer's, duty is to write
about these things. It is his privilege to help man endure by lifting
his heart, by reminding him of the courage and honor and hope and pride
and compassion and pity and sacrifice which have been the glory of his
past. The poet's voice need not merely be the record of man; it can be
one of the props, the pillars to help him endure and prevail."
- Excerpt from Faulkner's Nobel Prize for Literature acceptance speech on Dec. 10, 1950.
- Excerpt from Faulkner's Nobel Prize for Literature acceptance speech on Dec. 10, 1950.
Gillian Flynn
“For several years, I had been bored. Not a whining, restless child's
boredom (although I was not above that) but a dense, blanketing malaise. It seemed to me that there was nothing new to be discovered ever again.
Our society was utterly, ruinously derivative (although the word derivative
as a criticism is itself derivative). We were the first human beings
who would never see anything for the first time. We stare at the wonders
of the world, dull-eyed, underwhelmed. Mona Lisa, the
Pyramids, the Empire State Building. Jungle animals on attack, ancient
icebergs collapsing, volcanoes erupting. I can't recall a single amazing
thing I have seen firsthand that I didn't immediately reference to a
movie or TV show. A fucking commercial. You know the awful singsong of
the blasé: Seeeen it. I've literally seen it all, and the worst
thing, the thing that makes me want to blow my brains out, is: The
secondhand experience is always better. The image is crisper, the view
is keener, the camera angle and the soundtrack manipulate my emotions in
a way reality can't anymore. I don't know that we are actually human at
this point, those of us who are like most of us, who grew up with TV
and movies and now the Internet. If we are betrayed, we know the words
to say; when a loved one dies, we know the words to say. If we want to
play the stud or the smart-ass or the fool, we know the words to say. We
are all working from the same dog-eared script. It's a very difficult era in which to be a person, just a real, actual
person, instead of a collection of personality traits selected from an
endless Automat of characters. And if all of us are play-acting, there can be no such thing as a soul mate, because we don't have genuine souls. It had gotten to the point where it seemed like nothing matters, because I'm not a real person and neither is anyone else. I would have done anything to feel real again.”
...
“Men always say that as the defining compliment, don’t they? She’s a cool girl. Being the Cool Girl means I am a hot, brilliant, funny woman who adores football, poker, dirty jokes, and burping, who plays video games, drinks cheap beer, loves threesomes and anal sex, and jams hot dogs and hamburgers into her mouth like she’s hosting the world’s biggest culinary gang bang while somehow maintaining a size 2, because Cool Girls are above all hot. Hot and understanding. Cool Girls never get angry; they only smile in a chagrined, loving manner and let their men do whatever they want. Go ahead, shit on me, I don’t mind, I’m the Cool Girl. Men actually think this girl exists. Maybe they’re fooled because so many women are willing to pretend to be this girl. For a long time, Cool Girl offended me. I used to see men—friends, coworkers, strangers—giddy over these awful pretender women, and I’d want to sit these men down and calmly say: You are not dating a woman, you are dating a woman who has watched too many movies written by socially awkward men who’d like to believe that this kind of woman exists and might kiss them. I’d want to grab the poor guy by his lapels or messenger bag and say: The bitch doesn’t really love chili dogs that much—no one loves chili dogs that much! And the Cool Girls are even more pathetic: They’re not even pretending to be the woman they want to be, they’re pretending to be the woman a man wants them to be. Oh, and if you’re not a Cool Girl, I beg you not to believe that your man doesn’t want the Cool Girl. It may be a slightly different version—maybe he’s a vegetarian, so Cool Girl loves seitan and is great with dogs; or maybe he’s a hipster artist, so Cool Girl is a tattooed, bespectacled nerd who loves comics. There are variations to the window dressing, but believe me, he wants Cool Girl, who is basically the girl who likes every fucking thing he likes and doesn’t ever complain. (How do you know you’re not Cool Girl? Because he says things like: 'I like strong women.' If he says that to you, he will at some point fuck someone else. Because 'I like strong women' is code for 'I hate strong women.')”
- Excerpts from Gone Girl, by Gillian Flynn
...
“Men always say that as the defining compliment, don’t they? She’s a cool girl. Being the Cool Girl means I am a hot, brilliant, funny woman who adores football, poker, dirty jokes, and burping, who plays video games, drinks cheap beer, loves threesomes and anal sex, and jams hot dogs and hamburgers into her mouth like she’s hosting the world’s biggest culinary gang bang while somehow maintaining a size 2, because Cool Girls are above all hot. Hot and understanding. Cool Girls never get angry; they only smile in a chagrined, loving manner and let their men do whatever they want. Go ahead, shit on me, I don’t mind, I’m the Cool Girl. Men actually think this girl exists. Maybe they’re fooled because so many women are willing to pretend to be this girl. For a long time, Cool Girl offended me. I used to see men—friends, coworkers, strangers—giddy over these awful pretender women, and I’d want to sit these men down and calmly say: You are not dating a woman, you are dating a woman who has watched too many movies written by socially awkward men who’d like to believe that this kind of woman exists and might kiss them. I’d want to grab the poor guy by his lapels or messenger bag and say: The bitch doesn’t really love chili dogs that much—no one loves chili dogs that much! And the Cool Girls are even more pathetic: They’re not even pretending to be the woman they want to be, they’re pretending to be the woman a man wants them to be. Oh, and if you’re not a Cool Girl, I beg you not to believe that your man doesn’t want the Cool Girl. It may be a slightly different version—maybe he’s a vegetarian, so Cool Girl loves seitan and is great with dogs; or maybe he’s a hipster artist, so Cool Girl is a tattooed, bespectacled nerd who loves comics. There are variations to the window dressing, but believe me, he wants Cool Girl, who is basically the girl who likes every fucking thing he likes and doesn’t ever complain. (How do you know you’re not Cool Girl? Because he says things like: 'I like strong women.' If he says that to you, he will at some point fuck someone else. Because 'I like strong women' is code for 'I hate strong women.')”
- Excerpts from Gone Girl, by Gillian Flynn
Thursday, January 29, 2015
Henry David Thoreau
"I learned this, at least, by my
experiment: that if one advances confidently in the direction of his
dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will
meet with a success unexpected in common hours. He will put some things
behind, will pass an invisible boundary; new, universal, and more
liberal laws will begin to establish themselves around and within him;
or the old laws be expanded, and interpreted in his favor in a more
liberal sense, and he will live with the license of a higher order of
beings. In proportion as he simplifies his life, the laws of the
universe will appear less complex, and solitude will not be solitude,
nor poverty poverty, nor weakness weakness. If you have built castles in
the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now
put the foundations under them."
- Excerpt from Walden; or, Life in the Woods, by Henry David Thoreau
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